You make me so crazy.

I feel like my opinions are unimportant. Like they don't matter compared to everything that's going on in the world. But I never share my opinions unless I have enough knowledge on the subject and can back it. I refuse to make myself look like an idiot.
But if I refuse to make myself look like an idiot why do I never show anyone my full potential? Why do I hide behind this facade and pretend that I'm not the brightest bulb in the box. I'm not quite sure why I do it. But I really need to stop. I am a lot smarter than I let people on. Just because I'm quiet doesn't mean I'm stupid. It just means I'm thinking and choosing not to speak what's on my mind. Or I'm processing all that's happening and analyzing every minuscule detail. I like to be aware of my surroundings, places and people.
Enough about that. On to a more serious matter. I think I need to go to the doctor and get a cat scan of my brain. Back in January I had a kid fall on me while crowd surfing at a concert. I went to the doctor and found out I had a brain contusion. Which is basically a bruise on the brain or bleeding between the brain and skull. The pain went away after about a month. But I've had problems with my short term memory ever since. It is quite frustrating. And then I need to see a dietician because nearly everything I eat or drink makes me sick. I wish we could live without eating. But I know it's not possible. I can't enjoy food anymore, at all. I've already given up ice cream and soda. Next is meat and fish because I just can't handle it anymore.
If anyone knows of any vegan/vegetarian recipe sites that they could refer me to, please post an URL in my comments. Or if you have any suggestions what-so-ever.